3 am?!

well..i'm up tis late..so there sure muz b a problem..and ya..there is..i've been tinking alot lately...n wat was i tinking bout?..surprisingly?..kevin khoo..i duno wat the hell has gotten into me la..it's lyk..i'm super mad at him..but at the same time i feel the urge to talk to him everyday lyk last time..so now...i duno whether it's cuz i miss talkin to him..or do i 'miss' miss him..haih..i know i love jeeva ryte now..but sometimes i feel like smtg is missing..lyk..there's a part of my life tat even jeev cant fill...i noe tats wen i turn to God...but..haih..wat i really wana noe is why?!..why ignore me just cuz i invited GSLC youth to my church concert?>..only to hav u ignore eveything i sent to you n wen u decide not to ignore me..u say it's my fault then invite GSLC members to YOUR church musical..haih..so i really wana noe y?..haih..i would curse..but..made a deal wit jeev to NOt curse...gosh..yea..n today i got a christmas present frm u..haha..funny ryte?..i tot u wun even bother bout my whereabouts...it as a necklace..wit a cross pendant..not much..but surprisingly it was exactly wat i was looking for..smtg that wun rust wen touch sweat or wtr..since i wana wear it full time..but oh no!!it's frm you..DUDE!!u freaking messin wit my mind la!!!haih..i such in deep shit ryte now..but i noe im not falling for you again la dude...never again..