regret?

Deebie and Caleb's wedding today...haha..it was...lyk any other weddings la..but i feel so happy for both of them..haha...then err...basketball...normal la...

What Am I Frustrated Bout?
Is it you immaturity?
Or is it the fact i wish i was a guy so that the ball will be passed to me?
Or the fact that i feel like i love the wrong thing?

Only You

haha...today went for b.ball...only four of us went(me,lay,yi n jia yen)..after a while v got bored cuz the guys using full court..haha..then go eat lo..v went macD...lay n i ate mcvalue breakfast...yi n jia ate fillet...haha...the lay sin playing wit her tea...lifeless...then i walk home lo..parents working ma...then i watched tv,slept....then went for b.ball again wit my bros..haha...today quite alot came la...Jeeva almost killed Vesh...haha...err...actually i also duno wat to post ady le..haha...but wtv it is..2moro is Debbie n Calebs wedding..ahaha....will post pix la..haha..if blog dun gimme prob..haha...

When I see you my heart beats with rage,
When I think of you I remember how betrayed I felt,
When I talk about you I feel the pain,
Only you can make me feel this sucky,
I guess I haven't 100% stopped loving you.

Worth the wait

haha...last nite i din get to sleep cuz stupid MOsQ feeding on me...==...every1 hour i wake up...so..i slept in the afternoon...haha...dayum..time passed damn fast..it's already thursday..tomorow is friday..=.=...n sat is Debbie n Caleb's wedding..haha..anyway...i also duno wat to post now la...haha..but today for b.ball i tried to call Jeeva but some other guy picked up..then he say call his house so i ask for the number...the number suddenly got alot of 2s..so i tot it was a prank..so i din cal n just went la..it seems tat Veshinu has Jeeva's fon n suppose to come but got tuition.Jeeva damn P.o....haha...at least ltr on in the game he smile abit..haha..chill lar bro..ahaha

Your The rose amoung the torns

my eyes opened wen the clock struck 8.45,dad said to go to KL at 9,but left at 9.15,so in otherwords we were at KL till noon,but v bought big apple doughnuts,

v went home,n the weather was...blazing hot...i couldn't tahan,i got a headache n went to sleep woke up at 4.30,called the gang for b.ball...but left home at 5.25...went there,there was willy and Rachael,ltr on Jeeva,Sasi,Veshinu,Vinoth,Henry and Joel came..so ya la...got play game la...then to my surprise Eizaz came...so ya la....i kena bully damn kau by Eizaz...cannot fight bk cuz got headache...damn...ya la...went home,studied then went to sleep n now my fingers are on the keyboard...

If I fall
If I break
If I lose myself in someone
If I give all I am it'll be with you
When I'm ready to take
All that you want me to give
It will be worth the wait
Worth the wait
It will be worth the wait

Darkness In Both the Sky and in my heart

lets see wat i did today shall we?..well...life was rather normal n boring today..except the fact that my dad was killing n scaling fishes the whole day..he wanted to kill a soon hock(a fish) by puttin it in the fridge..but after an hour it was still alive..hardcore gile...ahaha...

slept till bout 4.50

4.50 i called henry n jeeva and veshinu,dpat Henry n jeeva but veshinua tak pick up his fon...haih...so i also dun care la..i went on9 for a ltl while..den bout 5.45 i left to the court...my shooting damn suck today i wanted to kill myself...then bout 6.23 jeeva n his fren ivan came...then play full court..i still wanted to kill myself...at the end of the day i only scored 3 balls...damn suck ryte?...i noe...duno y but my head wasn't in the game...i duno wat i was thinking la...ahaha...confusing..my head was spinning la..but it wasn't a headache..but i longed for a panadol...haha...

when it's not alright,
when it's not ok,
will you try to make me feel better,
will you say alright,
will you say ok?
will you stick with me through whatever.
or runaway?

A Love Too Strong

haha...today my dad finally decided to take my family out for a family trip...but to mid valley la..better than nothing...v went to watch up...haha.. the movie was actually nice..quite kan cheong..haha..i lyk the bird n the talking dog..haha...n the cloud mini clip...haha...ya la..then makan at old town tho..haha...nvm la..dah spend so much in mid ady..haha...

wen came home,on9 ltl while then called ah lim...lol...i was sittin in the kitchen talking to him when suddenly i turn to the gas tank n saw a mouse...or is it a rat..i duno la..i started screaming..haha...ah lim on the other side blur..haha..then tat time my dad just left the house..so my mom n i had to chase it out..haha..stupid mouse duno wana run where,run thru n fro....haha..v were using mosQ spray n cockroach spray...then at last my mom open the bk door n use the broom to poke the mouse...then bugger ran over my leg i scream,jump and sparyed it...haha..laugh kau-kau...damn malu...feel so blond..haha..ya,but the best part was my mom took the broom n swept the mouse out while saying "OUT!"..haha....then my mom apologize too the mouse cuz it flew..haha....lol....damn..unforgetable man..haha....

Sorry's not enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Tell me where is the answer
How do you find the strength
The strength to let it go
We need to just to leave
When sorry's not enough

is it you?

today lyk normal went to church la...in the morning Mr.Sky look happy with miss sun..then suddenly he started crying..i guess mr sky still love miss cloud very much...=[...

anyway...i went to sleep la...since i tot it'l rain kau-kau...but i din really get to sleep cuz msg-in ah lim..=.=....then suddenly fon rang..=.=...it was bout 5...so..obviously.it'l b either willy or henry..n,duh!it was...asking whether goin not..i decided to go la..just to get some air...duno y, but din hav the mood to play..but got draged in anyway...

went home,dad ask where's the basketball,apparently,bro lost the ball..i wanted to @#$%^&** him..but...kalpa ehmo...kena bayar 10 bucks just for the stupid ball..=.=...haih...ya la...lyk tat la my day...wat to do?...

I'm looking for someone to share my pain,
Someone who I can run to,who would stay with me when it rains
someone who I can cry with through the night,
someone who I can trust who's heart is right

you fault?or mine?

I will not make the same mistakes that you did 
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery 
I will not break the way you did 
You fell so hard 
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far 

Because of you 
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk 
Because of you 
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt 
Because of you 
I find it hard to trust 
Not only me, but everyone around me 
Because of you 
I am afraid 

I lose my way 
And it's not too long before you point it out 
I cannot cry 
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes 
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life 
My heart can't possibly break 
When it wasn't even whole to start with 

because of you...now i'm afraid to love again...ur the worse crush i ever had...should i blame you or is it all my fault for liking you?
mayb i should just blame mysele la...after all..u din ask me to lyk u...u din ask me not to sleep,not to eat ryte?...but the feeling is jst ther..so wat to do?haih...i duno la..i tink...if u ask me help you now..i tink i'll still help you...cuz even tho i no lyk u anymore..u're still my best bud man...

the lol-ness

today went for basketball...cuz hols..but sadly only 5 ppl came(yi ting,fui teng, lay sin, jia yen n moi)...so did ntg much..tried to play a 2 on 3 game...but end up every1 sat down...played "turtle" haha....then tok...ntg much la...damn sien..ahaha...so decided to go eat la...but duno go where..so v walk only l.a..then our legs carried us to old town white coffee..haha..but i no money..so had to borrow frm fui..(dun worry,i'll pay u bk)haha....v all ordered same food..ahaha...diff drink only..haha...then v ate la...duh..haha...as soon as the food came.(it had an egg with it...half bolied) v were playing wit the egg..haha..yi ting's egg was the best lab rat la..haha...damn funny...then fui n yi got damn high...haha...den yi was the last to finish...n her last food in her bowl was a sausage...haha...as soon as she held it to her mouth..fui n i burst into laughter...normally i wun 1..but it just look Damn rong..haha...so yi ting had trouble eating tat....sausage..haha...then at 10.40 i started to walk home...haha...din noe a sien day can end up lyk tat...haha..

ur layout

hayati here..
hope you like ur layout.
and hope you like the little last minute thing i did down there.
i did it with paint :D VERY LAST MINUTE.
a quote from LeBron James down there.
then your header is the picture of you slamming the ball ;P
the header there got my quote for you.
couldnt do more.
sorry if it's ugly.
my eye blurry edy -____-
1.10 a.m ler..
need glasses! T.T
anyways, yeah. sorry again if ugly!
if you hate it i'll change it! :)

- lil hammy <3

The Truth

well, today after the 6 hour seminar...i went home n it was raining...so i din go to the court....at bout 6 i left cuz i need some air...so i duno wana walk where....so i headed towards the park..then i saw jeeva,so walk wit him la...then saw narandra n pravin..i was wearing shorts,t-shirt n slippers..i no mood to change so i just change my top lo...so the whole timje jeeva n i were talking...tis is wat happened la.. (im just gna cut n paste since i malas wana type again.)

then i ask him y he came .then he answered n ask me bk the same ques i told him i tot no 1 would come tats y i came then he was lyk"oh you emo-in la,wat u emo-in bout la?".... then i told him la but then tell him ny crushes name la .i just told him some crush problems .then he asked " y the guy played you is it "then i was lyk... "can say la ."so v continue talkin bout ex-es n stuff then he ask wat age i was lyk i lyk ppl elder guys than me .then he say la..smtg bout elder guys go for younger girls mainly cuz they(the girls) less experience n stuff n only hoping to get fucked la...

so tat was basically wat v toked bout la...n toked bout more ex-es la..haha...

Coming through my speaker, speaker
got me trying to reach ya, reach ya.
My analogue feature, feature,
my electric guitar.
Everytime I mind you, mind you
everytime I'm by him, by him.
You're ripping it up on them chords,
playing my heart.

NYEH!!

gosh..dude..you suck la u noe tat?...was talking to your fren and i guess wat he said was kinda true..haha..al the more reason to kick ur sry ass goodbye la..haha...therefore...GOODBYE!!! Me no lyk you!!!

Am I Trash To YOU!?

you don't just slam the fon wen im talking to you man...tats wen i realized tat you dun feel the same way as i do..ppl worried for u just close d fon without saying a goodbye...haih...wats the point of waiting for smtg tat will nv come ryte?....ya...so...i wish i dun see you again..but then...my heart is dying to catch a glance of you...wat to do..ntg lo..hope and wait for the feeling to chao...

lala and punk are diff!!!

the above 3 pics are punk styles..more oof a street punk style..NOT LALA!!!

the remainding 3 are "so Called" punk...but their style is LALA....i hope u guys c the difference...

what i wear is NOt lala...it's more of a stree mixed with a ltl punk...probably some goth...but NOT lala...

Giving Up Hope

Haih,,i'm givin up hope on you man..i can't n don't want to wait no more..i can't take it any longer...it's obvious u dun take me as i take you..i'm sick and tired of crying just because of you...

"love", a simple four letter word,but has a meaning which is limitless,that no words can express.Love is patient,love is kind. It also blows you out of your mind.Love can be the best and the worst feeling ever. Love is something you can never run away from, no matter how far or how long or how fast you run,"love" will always be there. Love seems to come out of no where at any time. you can never predict when or whom it will be for. Some people turn into madnessdie for love. But for some,love is the way of life. Love is the only thing that can make you heart beat like never before, it's not the kind of feeling you have before a race or an important concert. Love can turn you into something else. Love makes you worried on how you look. ONly Love can make you cry a pool of water. Only love can make you feel like a fool. You can love 1 for 2 years but love another for 2 weeks. What love can do? NObody KNows. Some say it puts colours into their lives,others say it drags you to hell. So what can it do? I think love is all the above. Love is limitless.. when it comes to love. some would

green apple 2009

tis is only my team in church camp tis year...imagine the happiness with the whole church...even my family also not so happy...

hate it..

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this is where i wana be ryte now,looking up at

haih..i feel so down right now i feel lyk calling someone to teman me go to the court to just lay down and stare up at the stars..haih..the only person i can tink of is Eizaz,cuz his house the nearest..but still, i wana go alos cannot la..haih...

i feel so alone,and now i realized my parents mean i cant go out wit klbol ppl other than in church..haih..i want to cry man..actually i did la,now i got a big fat headache..haih...the thing i need most is my family..

ryte now?..i wish i was cutin myself...truthfully..but i've made a promise..n those days are over for me...but i still wish it somehow..cuz it'll cause less pain in my heart n more on my physical appearence..

what does it mean man...

haih..i duno la...u guys treat me...differently?...i also duno wat u guys thinking...u tink of me as a sis?..or wat...u guys r making me so..confused..so messed up...i noe u're not the 1s to b blamed..i mean...haih..i'm not gna say it..in case u're reading it..dun wan u guys to tink i perasan or wat...

today started with suuch promise...

i woke up high due to ysterday la..i not gna post in case that certain some1 read...so..ya...high la..then went to church,b4 that had breakfast wit joony they al..he also damn high..making the australian orang asli sound..."wao~wao~wao~wao~"..so ya la..

went for b.ball ltr on..then....haih..i also duno how to say la...it totally changed my mood....went from up to down..

i wana scream at you man!!!

dahla told u at the beginning of the week..then u wana gimme this kinda shit..i tot the rest were a bit too much..now i noe...bloody son of a bitch...suck...SUCK!!!haih...in a way...i feel dissapointed...in a way..i feel lyk im loosing a good fren of mine..but at this very moment?...i dun really giv a damn anymore...bye?..i duno..