Great stuff la

haha..well..apparently now 3/4 of the court knows bout my relationship wit jeeva..just hoping my bro wun find out...haha..i guess i should start to private my blog..just in case my dad or mom decides to start readin it..haih..yea..eizaz knows,henry,willy,joel..sasi of cuz know la..still got who?..shan sure know 1 la...lol..other than that...i duno who else knows la...

anyway..things are goin as usual..just tat ysterday he had his ltl mood swing..din hav a cigg..and apparently i became the punching bag...told me that he couldn't feel that i Love him...so i was wondering bout that the whole nite and the whole mng n afternoon...and since i dun use ppl as punchin bags..the next best thing is to bash up computerized ppl..so played street fighter..sadly now im kinda addicted to it..stupid...can bash the guys up..but wen come to cammy..she manyak tellor la..still tryin to get pass her..haih...yea..he said he needed some alone time and that for the next few days he wun see me or smtg lyk tat...so ya la...

Today went to play ball..started out ok..but then the question was still running thru my head la...haih..went to the big bad wolf book sale..was desperate to find some freakishly gory and bloody book to ease my bleeding heart..so yea..bot some comic book bout a dyin girl la..good enough..5 bucks..can la..haha

went home..played com...then...bi suddenly msg me..i was msg-in shan tat time..she counseling me...then i hairan la..i tot he wanted his alone time..suddenly msg me..but v cleared things up and he bot me MnMs to make it up to me for making me into the punching bag..haha..weee....super dumb..haha..but wat to do..free MnMs...how not to b happy?..haha..yea..wanted to go get it frm him behind the ally..but not enough time..crapped to mom saying goin shop...so i just told him leave it in my mail box..haha...it's already half gone..ur MnMs...no surprise there..haha...but m saving the rest..haha...tahan...

oh..and at dinner time...family went crazy haha..story is lyk this

dad
me
bro
mom

(was talking suddenly came to the topic of my dad)

wa,if next time got a game"how well do you know your dad?"..v sure can join one..(imitating as hostest) what does you dad say wen you do if you do something that ur dad is not happy wit?
initating dad:not funny

(all started laughin,even my dad)

question 2:what would ur dad say if you wanted to buy something?

use ur own money

(laugh somemore)

note to self,reduce girl's present.

(continue laughin)

after that i forgot wat happened but my bro n dad were eating sour sop..then bro found maggot in fruit..then mom asked

why got maggot one?

i tink the guy din cover his fruits..nvm la..fruit fly only wat

wen it's up in the tree?

yea

huh?u mean they cover their fruits so the flies wun lay eggs ah?

yea la.

cheh..i tot it's some scientific reason,,haha..

then how the fly lay it's eggs?how the maggot go in?

the fly cucuk then lay the eggs inside the fruit la..not lyk i push it out wat (does constipated action)..

(familay jammed for a while and burst into laughter)...

haha..super cacat la today..haha..hope everyday also lyk tis..

all for love

wel..today is the pool party..haha..so mng..ntg much then bout 3 plus esther came over to do my nails..haha..pics i'l upload ltr on..haha...it's really nice...haha...so..then bout 5.15 henry called say got no transport..so my dad had to fetch 5 of us..henry,willy,me,esther n me bro..haha..went there..justin was there..then waited for the rest..at 6 i still haven't seen jeev or any of the rest..tried calling..but no reply n jeev's fon multi retarded..=.=..then l8r on only saw joel n sasi.but no jeev..then at the end had to ask tan to go look for him wit sasi..haha..stupid ppl..==..then tgh main game saw chun yeen n his fren..haha...then saw sasi coming wit tan and jeev behind..so yea.but half the time they chao-in..u guys can guess doin wat la..=.=..but the games were...haih...pure klbol la..haha..

then food.

then worship,in which sasi was bein n ass..=.=..bugger annoying..=.=...but hey..show love..haha..still love you la bro..=]..

then talk.by adrian tan..haha...bout good and evil..haha...this i was surprise..he showed a clip..n to tink tat bi wun care bout it..he was the most corporately among his fren n sasi..haha...which kinda put a smile to my face.=]..

then was my testimony..i was scared..really scared..din noe wat to say n all..Cheryl say just pray n things will go fine..i did..n i did much much better than if i were to do any other time..haha...=]..thank you God...yea...

then prayer...this one BI also went along..haha..i lagi happy..=D

yea...so after that was chillin time..then down to the pool side...in which i was kinda the 2nd victim to be thrown into the pool..=[...yea...the person i failed in pushing down was Bi..=.=...failed..almost..but still fail..haih...hahahahahah..yea..adrian lim now telling me" thats y better throw urself in b4 pl throw u in'..hello boss..i dun plan on gettin wet also la..=.=...so yea..overall..it was fun..haha..=]...

Someone save my aching heart

Well...you see..apparently his fon dah rosak...and he made it worse by 'dropping' onto the ground just now..so now im wishing the day faster fin so that 2mr can come..haha...haih...kinda suffocating without you la Bi...==...so now im on9 to pass time..haha...lalalalalalala

I can live without you,
But every moment of it is torture,
But minute without you is empty,
And time passes very very S..L...O....W.....L......Y.......

Spilt the clouds and let the sun shine

haha...2mr is the day bebeh!!!..wakakakakakakakaka..now braces colour is now changed to green n yellow to match 2mr's outfit..haha...yea..anyway..ysterday was not a good nite..smtg came up..and Bi was kinda pissed at it...he lyk suddenly mood swing..duno wat happen..yea..i msg-ed him bout 1 in the mng..no reply..so i woke up every hour to check my fon to see if he reply not..haih...yea...couldn't take it at bout 3 clock..then i dreamt smtg i wish i had not..well.. the dream was..

I was talking to my frens at some party la..then suddenly frm behind someone hugged me,i tot it was my bi..wen i turned..it was eizaz dong..0.o..my frens were all givin me the "since when?!" look..then they just left..EEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!..stupid la!!!..haih..then i woke up..bugger.....

yea..but today bi told me it was ntg..truth is i am scared..im scared cuz there're other better girls out there for you...a less retarded 1 lyk me...years of being turned down has proved to me that im not the typical dating kinda girl..so..yes!!.i am scared..no matter how many time u tell me that u'll nv leave me..but im still scared..im scared that 1 day ur ex will return to you n u'll leave me to go bk for her..a 3 months relationship is ntg compared to a 1 month plus relationship...haih..

Right now I feel like hugging you,
Ensuring you that there's nothing going on between me and any of my ex,
Ensuring you that nothing will make me change my love for you,
Nobody can make me think otherwise about you,
You the 1 and only 1 in my eyes,
No amount of cash,
No amount of treasure can change that fact,
Cause my love for you is true and deep.

Bring it to me bebeh

haha...ok..im bored..n dun noe wat to post..but wtv it is..im am really excited for this friday..haha..i duno y also..haha...yea..KLBOL youth evangelistic pool party bebeh!!haha...yea...hopefully i wun hav to make frens wit the pool...cuz apparently im now a target for the pool.T.T...im running away..haha..grab a plate of food n ciao..haha..yea...now justin tells me he wants me to tell a life testimony..0.o...haha...yea...haha...hia..=]

MY fav mes:

You have me,
Im willing to wipe away his memories,
Im gna love you like no one can,
I can be your superman,
Just take my hands lets fly away,
I promise I'll be there everyday,
Just close we'll start to fly,
Im gna love you till i die,
Till D-day of my death,
Till my very last breath,
I'll love you till noone's left.

the world in a diff perspective...

my perspective: life is a bitter sweet experience..
lot of colours ryte?

my perspective: Life IS colourful...it's only whether you see it or not..

as you can see that there's a cacat tree in the middle..extra short 1...

my perspective: everyone is different in they're own ways..but they're still special.=]

like honey in the rock

hey guys..pix frm hilton hotel..haha..

oh bebeh

OKay folks..Moi off to KL Hilton..hahaha...oh bebeh!!!..luxury..haha..dun worry..dun miss me too much for i'l only bid u farewell for 2 days..urs truely will be back on sat..haha..so..see ya ppl...will miss ya..especially u bi..XD...but i'l try to call ya...haha.n no..i m NOT gna where a freaking bikini by the pool side..i just got meself a pair of knee length beach pants.haha..will post ze pictures up wen i come bk..haha...

Where you at

ysterday was raining the whole day..so couldn't go out..=[..wanted to grab an ice-cream wit leng..but raining..haih..n it was our monthary ysterday..tot can at least see him..but..the rain kept pouring..no stopping..=.=..ya..but hopefully can go out 2day..haha..since you need a good luck hug frm me aite?haha..ya..n wana get ice-cream also..wakakaka..

ysterday i slept at..9.30..after bones..haha..then i woke up at 1.25...saw my fon..haha..u called wit ur dad's number..so i texted you..then u called bk..wit ur dad's fon..telling him u wanted to discuss bout sejarah..lol..==so yea..talking talking talking talking...then..haha..guess wat time it was...haha...3.50..then i called him bk till my credit habis..then u called bk again..so in conclusion v talked till 4.10 am..haha...ur dad is gna kill u bi..haha..so ya..my dad woke up at 4..so i was talking as soft as i can..haha..sked he bust me...haha...so ya..then i slept till 9plus..haha...i din get to say this wen u hung up cuz my dad was there..outside my room..in the kitchen..but..I LOVE YOU...

3 words,
8 letters,
1 meaning..
I Love You..

Brick by boring brick

Kinda lyk me aint it?..haha..XD

she lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angels were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
keep your feet on the ground
when your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle; bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba pow
So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
or the wolves gonna blow it down
keep your feet on the ground
when your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah
Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba...

The clock stricks and time has come

2day was normal la..haha..but m eager for the evangelistic party..that reminds me..those who can and want to come..

Date: 27th November
Time: 6pm till bout 9
Venue:Maxwell tower,pool side (transportation dun worry,will get for you ppl)
Theme: Beach wear

those of you who can come or want to come..plz let me know latest by wednesday(18/11/09) cuz needa confirm everythin..food provided..

yea..basically ntg much la..just tat dinner time went to SunRaj wit family..haha..then sasi and you guessed who came la..damn..i jam kei ady..duno wat to do..mom right in front there..haih..just act lyk ntg happen la..but my mom said i was blushing..lol..ya...

called bi..talked bout 1 hour..my credit...haih..fly away la for sure..haih..but hey..worth it cuz tomoro...v'l officially be 1 month togeta..haha..ya..

the shopaholic is in-town!!

today went to ikea..damn..left at 9..came home at 4 clock man..i went wit my mom n bro..tiring gile...n my knee blm heal lagi..so i was half dead..my knee was hurtin lyk hell man...i left house wit bout 35 buck..now i only hav...3.95 wit me..n im suppose to get credit tomoro..lucky cheryl still owe me 2 bucks..haha..wen v reached..mom bought us hotdogs at ikea..then v went to the restaurant upstairs..had mee siam..while bro had some expensive cake la..=.=..then met up wit mom again..walked around...

after ikea..went to ikano..went to pets wonderland..ahaha..there was a CUTE terrier..damn small..i told my mom" i tink i can put in my bag n nobody will know la..can bring to skol also.."haha...then went popular..bought a comic n sudoku book...then bro wanted to buy fish..=.=..but v were goin to borders n all..

headed to curve..went to borders..then mph..then i walked around cuz i needed some T-shirts..haha..cuz i dun hav much t-shirts..haha...ya..but tak dpt..=.=..then headed our way to search for food..but every where damn packed or expensive..bugger..so v walked thru ikea then ikano..then tried curve..then walk back to ikano..then wanted to eat macD at curve but too full so walk bk to ikano..i tell u ..i wanted to scream ady..=.=...my knee was really hurting..n my bk also..cuz carry bag n all..wit the books n wat nots..heavy sial..=.=..finally v ate at some place called klang station or smtg lyk tat la..==...had asam laksa..then after that went bk to pets wonderland to get my bro's fish..=.=..then i went to popular to get another comic..haha..

for dinner?went to old town..haha..finally bought my top there..9.90..haih..so now..i sudah PO KAI!!!!T.T...waaa..nvm la..tomoro working..haha..get some cash in..

P.s.: last night,i dreamed tat u called me..haha..after so long of not talking to me..u suddenly called me?..lol..u called me for wat?..ask me go yam cha..lol..haha..i was lyk "dude,y suddenly 1?.." you said you needed to talk,,i told u to get someone else..cuz i was "bz"..haha..u sounded sad..but hey dude!!i've got a life la..n u din tok to me cuz of some stupid reason...then suddenly ask me go yam cha?..damn funny la..haha..ya..it was a dream anyway..(told my mom..my mom was lyk..he's just immature la for not taliking to you cuz of tat..)

Updatin you ppl

monday:
hmm..4got wat v did or wat i did ady..

Tues:
din go skol,

Wed:
haih...the day you told me you couldn't feel the love i feel for you,that you feel lyk ur tepuk sebelah tangan..truth is..im in my ltl..."leave me alone" zone now...constantly zoning off..i duno how to express the way i feel bout you..everytime i want to say that I Love You..my throat seems to get jammed..the words just can't seem to come out..but truth is..everytime i see you i just feel like screaming out loud...I FREAKING LOVE YOU BI!!!

Thurs:
It was raining so couldn't keluar..but went out anyway..after the rain stopped..just needed some air..to exercise my legs bit..but somehow i knew that you would be at the field..but when i reached nobody was there..so i decided to walk around..just walk only la..then bout 6.30..i headed bk..nobody there then nvm la..go sit swing la..haha..then otw,i saw you..went into ur arms..just wat i needed...but u did smell of cigarettes..==..then v talked n cleared things up..then walk me bk home..bro was there la..duh...nvm la..

Fri:
haha...today went to skol..class party!!!LOVE 3A3!!!!...haih..then mashi n roshyny mayb moving all..T.T..ya la..had fun la..haha...then went for b.ball...normal stuff la..otw home..bi came n teman..sharma was there also la..haha..then almost near my house...i handed him his 1 month anni present b4 i kiss him on the cheek la..haha...ntg much there..XD..haha..i muz say he was rather surprised..haha...but duno how he tinks bout the soap la..haha..yala...

Sat:
duno yet..

Do you know?

Everytime I wake up in the middle of the night,
I wish that you were right next to me,
To crawl back into your arms,
To sleep the night off,
Everytime I walk alone on the streets,
I wish that you were right next to me,
To take my hands in yours,
To keep me close to you,
Everytime I walk that ally alone,
I wish that you were right next to me,
To suddenly hold me by the waist,
And whisper the three words 'I Love You'
The one place I feel save,
The one place I feel secure,
Is right in your arms,
Your arms are my castle.

haha

Im at charlie's place now..haha..just so you guys noe...haha..

the happening

Sunday, 8th Nov:

Had church..then went home..ate..went for b.ball wit bol..reason i went with bol ws cuz i was kinda avoiding him...we had a minor fight the nite b4 =[...n smtg he said kinda stirred up smtg of my past..n it hurt..so..ya la..haha...went there with joon...then played game..haha..at least i improved la..can fake then score..haha..1st game was me,justin yuan n paul(some other guy)..vs lok,ju win n..i forgot..it was ok..then 2nd game was 3 on 3..me,lok and paul vs against justin,ju winn and yuan...then tgh playing i was about to lay up...then paul suddenly pop in front of me..so kena clash la...lol..1 moment my eyes were on the hoop...another moment i was staring at the sky..haha..so apparently now i can hardly move my knee and my neck...so..i guess i wun be playing ball for a while..haha..unless im bein stubborn la..haha..ya la..

Monday, 9th Nov:

went to skol..dead tired.. X.X .. went to skol half dead..neck n knee hurt gile..=.=...slept at the dataran after collecting form 4 books..haha..came home read..now on9..ahaha..

Beautiful soul

(Such tiny fragment in my palm,I will treasure it till the end)

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah.

Just another day

haha..well...my back is still paining..now it hurts worse cuz i did push ups last nite cuz terlalu pissed..haha..cacat i noe..ahaha..so yea...then tis mng went out wit my aunt for breakfast..haha

Death by Iced Chocolate b4 mixin..(basically it's melted chocolate at the bottom.milk in the middle n ice cream on top..wit ice..)

after mixin it..it looks lyk tis..

after tat i slept..haha..hot day man.hot day..

damned

well..went for b.ball today...on the way home bro follow..so couldn't hold hands wit my bi la..anyway..after that had drum class..after sooo many months..then bi msg-ed me saying he waiting for me at the small field outside my house..so i tot can tell my mom i go buy credit padahal i go see him..mana tau...my mom watching me the whole time...bloody hell..kena busted la..but she still duno bout bi la..thank god..but kena la...lecture bout heck lot of things la..haih...i crap to her saying i mmg go buy credit..so happen saw him there...she..bein herself la..but..ya la..wtv la..screw it la...

after that bi called me n talking bout our moments..ahaha..damn funny la..n i'm all better again...haha...stupid boy..but I LOVE YOU...

lolness

today went to skol cuz had the stupid powerpoint thing to do...my hard work,headaches,and eye pains..==...but 1st was the drama competition...while waiting for it to start..swan came up to us to ask us to stay back for some Y.E thing next tuesday..then carmen was lyk..was that for? where v goin?..then swan said goin to some hotel thing la..as soon as carmen heard tat she hugged me(i was sittin next to her) and...of cuz..i was shocked la..cuz rarely/never see or get any hugs from her then suddenly she juz put her arms around me..0.o..ya...

drama was...boring...X.X...

after recess(in which i ate a plate of fried keuy teow, a plate of potatoes and a plate of nasi lemak) was the powerpoint thingy...when it was our turn...the com buat kacau..my heart was pumping hard man...at the end v got it running..BUT..when it came to the slide wit the video..it hanged..i was about to scream there itself..but...peace....fuuu...then i had to exit the powerpoint n play it on it's own..but at the end it worked out al ryte la..ahaha...

We won 2nd place tho..haha...good la..all the hard work,headaches,and eye pains..came to work..haha...

Such a fool,
So gullible,
To fall for such ignorant charm,
It's a weakness like you said,
But the entity of love is still there,
And nothing can change that.

OH NO!!!

help me!!!!!!!...i'm now realizing that im turning more and more lala by the day..waaaa!!!!!!!!!!....


so dead..hahaha...

You said:
If i aint got you I aint got anything,
Your the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And i dun wana go home right now,
And all I can taste is this feeling,
And all I can breath is your life,
Aint no other gurl can take your spot,
Cause like what you said you would be,
The apple of my eyes.

I say back:
After so long,
I've finally found,
Someone who loves me the way I love him,
The feeling is not one-sided,
But vice versa,
Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky,
Only you can make the world feel right,
Only you can make darkness seem bright,
All sounds sound like music with you around,
Everything looks like a piece of art work when I'm with you,
I just want to let you know,
I love you,
Can't you hear my heart beats fast,
I want this to last,
I need you by my side.

Only you

well today normal typical sunday la...church n all...haha..joony got new car..toyota vios..haha..then i went jacoon in the car..there was some sort of smtg behind the front passanger seat,in which was occupied by ah lim..haha..so i sked if i press it or do anything to it smtg will happen..ah lim wil die,i will die a much worse death..haha..assuming ah lim is soooo much heavier than i am..n joony wil hav a shock.haha..so esther read wat it said..it said"max 4KG"...so obviously it has ntg to do wit the passanger,if not ah lim seriously over weight ady..haha..so i realized it was a hook..n opened it..n went jacoon..well it wasn't as bad as the cup holder tat esther n i tot was some secret compartment..haha...ah lim also had the == face ady..haha..

So after tat i just remembered tat got pnw meetin so i msg me mom sooo nicely u noe..then my dad send bk treat msg..tat 1 ok u noe?..but then he spelt my name worong..it's a stupid reason to get angry at but lyk ah lim said..dad's can spell their kid's name wrong meh?..stupid!!!..haih..wtv la..went home by 3...then went to sleep..ya.then bi called ask me whether goin court not..tat time i was sleeping..lol..super kacau la..but i woke up wit a bag of books in front of me..haha..awesome...=]..anyway..i went to the court la..normal stuff la..bi walked me home by 7...wen i reaced home i juz saw my dad drivin out..i tink if i din reach home on time he would hav left witout me..i tell u ah..haih..nvm la...

I don't care what people say about you,
To me you're perfect the way you are,
The way your hand fits into mine,
The way you always know what to say,
The way you always smile at me when you see me,
No one can change that fact bout you.