Where's the uhu glue when you need 1

well...lets just say somehow today i'm feeling rather lonely..duno why la... i know that the right guy will come one day but till then..it'd b awfully lonely...looking at ppl talk bout their love ones and who good they sound...somehow or another they seem to click..haha...

• i dream of a guy who doesn't look at me n think of making out wit me,or hoping i wud change.
• i dream of a guy who can sweep me off my feet,not only for the 1st month wen v're together,but till death do us part.
• i dream of a guy whom i can fall into his arms and drift away without wondering whether he'l feel lost.
• i dream of a guy who can finish my sentence especially if they're stupid..haha..
• i dream of a guy who doesn't look at me lyk a kid.
• i dream of a guy who doesn't think im cute.
• i dream of a guy that doesn't look at my outer beauty, but on my inner beauty.
• i dream of a guy who doesn't look at other girls and say "why don't you dress lyk that?" but instead "thank God you don't dress lyk such..haha...wat?!..it's a compliment.."
• i dream of a guy who just listens to my problems and laugh after all the seriousness..
• i dream of a guy whom i can also call my best friend
  

haha....after this..v shall laugh on how stupid this is..=]..hahahah...i shall wait..i shall endure..for i know that it'l all pay off...

Special thanks

haha...in this post i wana thank facebook!!!!..haha..cuz of it..now i hav reconnected wit ALOT of my old skol mates..haha...XD...

so...THANK YOU FACEBOOK!!!!!!

Happy ending?...

hmmm...today ntg much la...went to macd for breakfast...haha...then went shopping...bought a new green spaghetti strap...hmm...ntg much la...

went home...

on9..

slept...

went out...(runnin)

dinner..

on9 again..haha

well..tats basically my day la..haha...

P.S.: i may be goin to private-kan my blog..haha...just so you guys are interested la...

R.I.P

school,school,school.....wat more...running....tis week no b.ball tho...haha...surprising eh?..haha

Today ntg to watch on tv, so watch the so you tink u can dance tat i recorded last nite la...then got this fly flying around...haiyo..super annoyin..so thruout the show i was trying to kill the fly..wit a rolled up newspaper in my hand..haha..i kept goin "you wait!!! I WILL kill you!!"..then it'l fly pass me super fast..bugger..then i was lyk "face me face to face!!!! come out n fight lyk a fly!! dun be a chicken fly!!"...my mom was laughing..haha..then i told her..."the fly too fast la(of cuz i din let it hear me la XD)..next time muz hav 100m race..see who faster.."..haha..my mom beh tahan ad...haha...

but i finally did kill it!!..haha...I TOLD YOU FLY!!!!ahahahaha...thank God i was able to kill it.if not i tink i wud've gone nuts...haha..

TO Mr/Mrs fly: Rest in peace my dear competitor...your future generation will soon meet with me..then v shall have our duel again..

Oh dear

haih...just came bk frm b.ball wit KLBOL...awesome game la...haha...jason came along..hahahaha....hmm...played 4on 4 la..haha..it feels lyk everybody on top form 2day...haha..got 1 game where i played wit the other ppl..not church members..cuz they needed a gal..stupid!!!..they super ego la!!!i got clear shot n im open..they still dun pass to me..super wat wey..angry gile dy...they tink wat?...i gal so i cannot or duno how to play ah?..plz la!!!i whooped ur arses the game b4 man!!!...after the game i just walked off...haih...then after that..they play 1 on 1...i din play la..haha..but jason was a big hit..everybody also wana play wit him..haha...then went dinner..

i duno y la..but i enjoy watching him n being by his side..haha..i dun tink it's a crush la..n somehow i sensed tat wen i was walking next to him or sitting next to him he wanted to hold me or smtg ...haha..mayb i perasan la..hahaha..

so..now here i am la..blogging..hahaha....but overall..2day was ok..except for my mom's case la..haih...

NOTICE

the above is an induction cooker (electrical kitchen stove,ori price RM3199)..tis the stove i was talking bout...mom is selling this 1 off...it comes with the 15-piece stainless steel set(ori price RM3099)...


the total of these two is...RMbout RM6000 la...but my mom selling it off for RM2000...plz..let me know who is interested...thanks ya'll..

WHY LAR?!

today i was gettin ready for church..then my mom suddenly came n hug me..then told me she lost RM2600..i was lyk " 0.0 how did tat happen?!"..then she say she nv wana go shopping alone ever again...apparently she got sweet talked into buying some filter shit..total of RM2600...==...came with an electric stove and a 15-piece set stainless steel set..haiyo..i asked my mom where she get the money frm to buy..she say she use my aunties' credit card..she earn 1 months time of work money also not tat much ok...i feel damn bad la..i shouldn't have left her alone at the mall la..she super gullible la...she worse than me la...stupid saleman la!!!pick wrong customer...haih...

Not only a broken heart

2day had b.ball..only sandra,kim and her sisters came...here ntg much to post la...

Went home

Bathe

Headed out for mid...ate at the Spaghetti farm..nice..you guys shud try..haha...then went to MPH get my bro's book, then Jusco to teman my mom buy clothes...was suppose to meet up wit charlie,kaylee,renee and dada...wen charlie n kaylee reached then charlie msg-ed me..so went to meet them..hmm..then saw nee n pearly..ok la...they ate..n waited for dayana..then watched percy jackson..it was nice man..haha...my kinda thing..all the Greek myths n god n goddess..frm Zeus to Athena to Hydra to Minotor..then started to go home la..haha..sry ah..not really in the mood to blog la..haha..

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truth is wen i saw u..u were dressed so posh...then the sudden pang of uselessness hit me..it's not ur fault..it's tat i got low self-confidance jek..mayb tats y i prefer to hang with clare,cheryl veno,prev,n gang la..i can be stupid witout bein given the look..sometimes it's lyk u acting as tho u are all tat..lyk u very big lyk tat..haha..haih..mayb it's just me la..haih...wen i see u,i just tend to remember all the tots i tot of wen i was wit jeeva..haha..i guess it still scars me la..haha..i've got no one to blame but myself..i duno y but i jus feel damn useless around you la..wen i shud b laughing i dun..so all i do is stone la..haih...bi,i realized u hav not only scared me wit a broken heart..but also the cause of an even lower self-confidence...

Cockroach!!!NO NO NO!!Amoeba!!!

well...last nite went back and din talk to my mom..bengang with her...so din tell her today got b.ball practice...so this mng wake up fought with her again..haih..wtv la..no mood layan..haha..then went b.ball..normal stuff la..2mr damn malas wana go for training la..haih..errr....

Then lunch with my mom's fren..good stuff wey..ate 2 full plates of stuff..haha..YUM!!!..

Slept...

Went to clare's house..haha..she fetch to go bible knowledge class..haha...err...hmm...went for class...haha..saw an old fren there...the class so ngam 4 guys 4 gals..haha..the front part of the room are the guys and the back the gals..haha..then had some intro stuff la..then break..then game..haha..we were suppose to draw/act out characters frm the book luke la..then this guy jason,his character was Jesus..haha...he started out wit a circle, then got two lines comin down frm the head(the hair)...which made the pix look lyk a cockroach..haha..Clare's 1st reaction was:" COCKROACH!!"..haha..then he continue with a second line below the 1st line..haha...then it looked lyk an amoeba..haha..XD...v din noe wat it was till he drew the cross on top..haha..LOL!!!....(Cockroach + Amoeba = Jesus???!!!)..haha...

Then went to mamak after class to eat, chat,and eat...haha...1st time i try maggi soup..haha...

Here I am now,
Suddenly feeling like talkin to you,
I know I don't like you,
But talking to you is just...
Soothing,
You suddenly feel gone,
It's as tho we come from the same planet,
But belong in different worlds,
It's just so weird how 2 worlds can collide,
Somehow, I enjoy talking to you,
But unsure if I'm a disturbance to you,
But I guess the best is that I leave you to your doings.

Let me drift along with the music

2day....went to clare's house..nice food!!...more lyk AWESOME food..but cannot eat..cuz just tightened my braces...damn potong la..T.T..then...was having a blast man...wen my mom called n ruined everything...haih..she say tat i told her i come bk at ten la..tats y my dad came at that time..wen i told her in the car ady tat i'm following shan home which will b bout 12...u noe y she din noe..cuz she was too busy talking to shan tat she ignored me..i tried to talk but kena hit pulak..haih..i told her " i told you,but u were talking to shannon tat u din hear me"...(even shannon said that she heard me tell her la...wat excuse does she have?)she jam there then said "oh,lyk tat la now u wana fight...u wait la..next time i gna tink really hard b4 letting u go out"..haih...i'm always the insignificant one around ppl la...even round my mom...she know tat i was ryte..tat i made sense..but yet..haih...

There's a place downtown,where the freaks are coming round

haha..haiyo..now u gimme 1 long msg bout you n me..plz la..u ust LOVE doin tis ryte?..1 moment u got new gal,boasting bout her all..1 moment u apologizing and wat nots..==..hello sir..make up ur mind la..cuz u confirmed mine..haha..i sebenarnya belum move on..but after u sold the ring n necklace..tat was wen i was sure to move on..then suddenly i hear u bitchin bout me all..lagi confirm moving on..==..then now u send me msg bout us being meant fer each other n all..tis is wat i mean by fickle minded man..

sry la..but i've moved on..now dreaming of my hot b.ball dude..XD...hahaha..

2day rained..so din get to play ball..but after it rained got to play ltl while..then malay kids were playing futsol..n i kena hit..==..my stomach kena man..im lyk..@#$%^&*()(*(*...haih..damn pain..wtv la..hahah..din get to run muich also..==...

Take it off

well..stories are coming in..wat i tot he'd do came true..haha..wtv la..it's his life..call me a bitch, call me an emo, call me wtv u want..haha..i dun need cha'..haha..imma live my life better witout u..haha..now for sure ady i moving on..not only joggin..but pecut-in..stupid...till today..i've not even tot badly bout u tau tak?..of cuz la u tak tau..== ...2day i break tat chain..haha..it feels relieving...haha..buh bye u ungrateful boy..

Play That beat fer me

i duno y ah..wen i run at the filed..i can run 600m straight in bout 3 min plus..but at skol..400 m take so long..haihyo..damn wat la...retarded..

2day willy n henry balik play ball..wah..damn syok la..looong time since v had tat kinda game..tat good a game...haha..feel damn good..haha..but wat annoyed me was my brother..haih..stupid la..he lyk girl only la..worse than my team members..every 5 mins go rest..5min l8r..see him drinking water..5 min l8r see him sitting down..im lyk..WTH!????!?!?!??!...wana play then keep ur head in the game la..haiyo..if he was my team member i tell u i zhao ady shout at him ady loh..and he complain n wat not wen i tell him he say i talk to much n wat nots...yer!!!..dun so ego la!!..guys n their ego..==...they big FAT EGO!!!

oh..haha...i found out my hot b.ball dude's name..XD..n im not telling..haha..XD...wen i found out i super high..haha...lol...i noe im not suppose to be scoping guys during trainin..but i din say u cant after training..haha..XD...n after so long..2day's the 1st day i act trashed talked bout him...haha..lagi high..haha...who needs ya!!haha...i can now dream of my hot b.ball dude man!!....haha..

Don't focus on winning,But focus on the race

well..I'm bored..so now thinking of ways to lyk..reopen the club,wat competitions to join..how to hav training n stuff..n not let the parents complain..haih..paling ma fan tu parents la..haih..then i sendiri gta train stamina if wana run for sports day..haha..

all those who are readin, and knows ppl who has the heart to play...all are invited..Assuntarians la of cuz...What the team needs are ppl wit the heart to play..whether you're good or not dun matter..cuz it can be trained..haha..

The race is what matters

well..today go my parent's church..boring la..almost slept off..haha..then went grandma's place..normal stuff la..haha..then play b.ball..but today jason came..lol.. i wanted to treat myself to some chocolate..kinder bueno in specific..but all shops either dun hav..or too expensive..==..so..i guess my cravings just hav to be postponed..haha

Ke Garisan...Sedia...MULA!!!!

today..talking to ppl la..haha..not wanting to talk bout it..my dad was watching princess dairies..damn funny.haha...realized it wen the movie ended...tat my dad din fall asleep..haha..then went out..wanted to buy chocolate 1..kinder bueno..but both 99 and mesra takde..==...so at mesra just bot pockey..my fav!!!haha..then went to louis' house..haha..got play with lucas..haha..lucas super naughty...the since last time louis sell the earrings n necklace n all..n he got LOTS of left overs..tak dpt jual..super rugi man...so he took all out ask me choose..earrings 1 big bag of em..damn..u see also...sure jam kei 1..haha..my bro was there..he was lyk..u coose la..then just take..haha...so at the end i took 2 pairs of earrings n 2 necklaces..haha..1 is the pendant of a treble cleft, n another is a lock...haha...my bro also got a pretty cool 1 la..haha....played with lucas...damn cute la he.haha..then left to go grandma's place...haha..

NEXT!!

well..i did that letter thing for jeeva ysterday,gave him bk the necklace and the ring that he gave, n tat very day he sold it off..wtv man..this proves that i was the STUPIG 1 to not move on..haha..nvm ...moving on..haha..

But im still not looking forward for valantines..it still hurts...i tot that tis year may be different..apparently not...haih..wtv la..not lyk i can do anything also..

NVM la..at least now in the single life i can scope Hot BAsketball Dudes..haha...XD...for those who noe la..haha...

Afar distance

There you are,
And here I am,
I now back at square one,
Where I left with an image of you,
The closest I can get is through the gift you gave me,
And yet,
You still feel a mile away.

The day is blazing hot,
And yet I feel so cold inside,
The warmth of you has dispersed,
But what is there to do?
Nothing but to crawl up alone in the dark.

3 stricks and you're out

well...here i am again..it's 3 in the morning,and im stuck unasleep..cuz i've kinda dedicated this timing to you,this used to be the time where i'd get u all to myself..but now i guess i can't claim that time..haih..well..wat you sow is wat you reap..

Vissions turning blur

Baby you may not know this,
But you're still stuck in my mind,
Not letting go,
Not moving,
Not budging,
This feeling of missing you but unable to tell you,
Is slowly eating me from the inside.

Honey do you know your voice is still like a song to me?
Your smile like a drug to my day,
I'm stuck on drugs now because I've lost you,
Everynight I have nightmares,
Afraid to close my eyes,
Afraid to dream it again,
But unable to keep them open,
Cause everytime their open,
They only wish to see you.

Bi I feel empty without you,
I feel useless without you,
I feel half,
Tears fallen are with no meaning,
Cause they fall for someone no longer there,
I'm crying over spilled milk.

Lord please hear me cry out,
This emptyness i can bare no longer,
Fill me up,
Cure my empty spot,
Cause I alone cannot do this.

like my iPod stuck on reply

well..2day i just realized tat i am again...witout a valentine..haha..wtd...nvm la..cannot do anything also..haha..

well..im still tinking bout wat my purpose is in life?..wat talents was i born wit? and stuff lyk tat...everytime i see ppl dancing or singin or wtv la..it's lyk ...i feel damn useless...then will just keep quiet..haih..i just wish tat i can go out n wen ppl ask wat i can do..i can tell wat i can do witout any doubt..haih...

well..tats kinda another reason i dun go for stuff lyk icc n all..cuz wen i see things lyk tat..it kinda puts me down..n instead of goin home wit a bang..i'l go home crying...feeling useless and talentless..lyk rubbish only..haha...

finish that race

well..today was merentas desa..haha..does who duno wat it is...it's called cross country in english..haha..i was really really sked la..since tis is my 1st year as a runner n all..haha..encik mustafah want us to place 1st to 8th..gila..i tot i wanted to juz place...top 100..it was my aim..haha...so was really sked la..was praying to nite b4...tis mng also was praying..haha...my dad advice me to move to the front..cuz got more chances of placing..haha..so akane n i were squeezing to the front la..haha..then wen start v were running together..haha..then suddenly she in front ad..babi btl..haha...then was runing lo..then saw my CHS fren wen baru enter taman jaya..haha..she pbsm...lucky la..run run run...at taman jaya slow down bit...keluar taman jaya/..slow down more..by the time i reached got number 23..wanted to pecut,,,but almost die ady.pecut means sure faint..tat time my kaki all shaking dah..haha..but still 23!!!!!...super happy..tot will get lyk..80plus lyk tat...WEEEE!!!!!!!

after that..ntg much la..

oh..then lunch time was talking wit my mom all..then i told her bout both my ex gf's and jeeva..then she asking questions all...she was kinda shocked tat i was gay la..but overall i tink she was ok..haha...kinda shocked by her reaction..haha..tot i sure kena screw kaw kaw..haha..after tat..ntg la...

now having headache..==