You're not alone

Well..on wed nee n i went to charlie's place...lepak je la..but i told my parents buat project...haha..and apparently v all were taking turns huggin tumbles..n i got pix of nee n charlie huggin her..but not moi...wakakakaka...
after tat i went home la..haha...i was also eating chocolate lollipop tat day...while my jeeva was freaking out cuz my bro asked him whether he lyked me..lol...

tats the chocolate lollipop..it was delicious..haha

All for you

I know it's bit early..but i was bored so i just started doing it..haha...these are the steps la..haha..it took me 2 days?..haha...looks bit spastic tho..

1st day: carved out the shape of from the soap..looks uneven..

2nd day: evened it out n carved in out initials..

2nd day: carved the patterns on it

2nd day: painted it..

Finished!!!

NOw it's in a box that i also made n it's sittin in my cupboard n i do not noe how long it'l last there witout anyone knowing..haha..but hey bi,u've gta wait..XP

A day at sunway

today I went out breakfast wit my aunt..went to la bodega..haha..i ordered banana strwberry crepe n chocolate banana smoothie..haha...pix are as below...

this is my mom's flat white coffee..haha..the top look super nice..heart shape..haha...<3

My banana smoothie

Banana strawberry crepe i ordered..haha..yum..

After that I went to sunway following shannon..went to charlie places..then got a fon call frm boo..telling me he bot tickets to watch white out..=.=..i wanted to kill him..told him dun wana watch movie still wana go buy the tickets..sharma n sasi was wit us..haha...the show boring la..haha...but very fun c sasi's reaction at the begginning..haha..so..movie over asked the rest where they were..said they were at popular..so v headed there...then nee suddenly called askd where i was..i told her goin popular then she say that they're at AnW...so pusing balik..=.=..reached AnW they not there..so the four of us sat outside waiting for them who was at dragon silver..=.=..then boo asked me sit next to him..then ask me close my eyes..i tot he gna kiss me so i wanted to walk away..he said to trust him so..at last i did close my eyes...it felt lyk..forever b4 anything happened..then suddenly felt smtg cold on my neck..necklace la duh..haha..pix r as below..=]..Love it Bi..



after that i din realize all of them were at the bk of us...super pai se only..=.=.then v hugged..he left..then v went AnW to get a drink..haha...then walked around...then shan super sad cuz din get wat she wanted..haha..so finally found a shop wit wtv she wanted..so i share wit her l..since it was a buy 2 for 15 bucks..so..i bot the black n white..shan bot black n brown..haha..then she whappy again...funny girl..haha...


so..tats basically today la..ahaha...

The best present I've gotten so far,
Was not the necklace,
But the fact that you're mine.
I Love You Bi.

Thank you

Life I knew you was empty..alone..depressing..confusing..messed up..

But you have filled me with love..compassion..Patience ...

Before getting to really know you..life was all black and white..

But You have added colors into it..And I thank you for that..

Dear lord,
I pray that You will continue to proper me with a good and healthy life,
By thoughts,word and deed,
I also want to ask for You to help those who are in trouble or frustration or confusion in their life,
You have blessed me with a blessed life,
Only I was too blind to see that last time,
Therefore now i thank you,
I'm grateful that You have transformed my life,
I have wonderful people in my life that will be there with me till the end,
Or when I fall.
Even if they disappear one day,
I know for sure that You'll not disappear.
Amen

to ma big bro

dude...wat is in the past let it stay n rot there..no use bringin them to live again..they're just gna become lyk a zombie n haunt you..obviously she not worth it...so forget bout her..if she can do tat kinda things to you..obviouslt she 1....haih..i shall not say..i'l keep you in ma prayers k big bro?..^^..

Dreaming wide awake

I had a bad day,
But you turned it around,
I was avoiding you,
You didn't let me,
You told me what I meant to you,
I wasn't too sure bout it,
But you ensured it,
The sound of you saying the three magical words,
"I Love You",
Just made my heart stop,
Cause all of this,
Seems like a dream,
I must have been dreaming wide awake.

The inside of me

However big my smile may be,
However loud my laugh may be,
However happy my eyes may seem,
However high I may be,
However much crap my words may have,
However much food I put into my mouth,
However close I may seem with you,
However normal I may seem,
Truth is my heart is hurting badly,
My smile is just a cover up,
My laughs are just a way of speech,
My eyes tear at the sight of you,
The crap I talk bout is just a way for me to restrain myself from telling you how much I care,
The food I stuff into my mouth are all forced,
Me being normal is that you'll get the picture that I'm alright,
But I realize,
I can't fake the fact of whether I love you or not.

Regreting every single moment of it

Apparently now you know..
You said to go out 1st..
But to me i really dun see the point..
I'm having the feeling that it's going to be be the same...
I mean..i wear spike wrist bans instead of bangles..
I wear spike earrings which are at least 2cm long..
I dream of punk Gothic knee length boots instead of Gucci high heels..
I wear baggy jeans instead of skinny jeans..
And what are the chances really?
1:99?

The last message?

You just stopped,
And now I feel extremely dumb for saying what I did,
Waiting by my phone,
Awaiting your message to come through,
Awaiting the light to blink,
For the screen to say,
"1 message received"
But it's not happening,
You asked who cares,
Maybe to you it's nobody,
But i do,
Yet again,who am I?
I am nobody all right,
I want to be the somebody to care,
I guess it's just not going to happen,
I keep looking at the sent folder,
Wishing I could take back what I sent,
But what is done is done,
Life has to go on,
Like what you always say.

Redirecting

A single hug from you,
Is able to turn my day around,
A single text message,
Is able to light up my face,
Every compliment from you,
Is priceless,
But when you think it's someone else,
It scares me,
Afraid that you would get the wrong picture,
But I just can't seem to come clean,
I try to cover up everything I say bout 'him',
I bullshit everything I say,
Hoping it won't be too obvious,
But have you ever thought that it is you?

Where are you?

The absentees of you,
Is unexpectedly unbearable,
You may only be a few feet away,
But it feels like a mile,
Your scent,
Your breath,
Your voice,
Is all gone,
My head is not in the game,
Nor is my heart,
Somehow it's missing just like you,
I try so hard not to look your way,
But my eyes are only turning that direction,
Like the needle of a compass,
Which only points north,
I just seem so lost without you,
Like a spoiled compass,

Turning the wrong direction.

A puzzle piece

You are like a piece of puzzle,
Without you the picture just doesn't seem complete,
I looked at your hands,
And wondered how well our hands would fit,
My heart seems like a black hole,
Without you there,
Somehow it's missing a puzzle piece,
It isn't complete,
What is my heart without you?
Nothing,
Just a black hole which leads to nowhere.

Follow me if you can

haha..today mng got tuition..normal la that story...then after that mom picked me up..then she said having lunch at rokuzen...obviously my aunt belanja...haha...waited for her for lyk 15 minutes..haha..so i was drawing on my book...haha...lifeless gile...then she came,we ordered..food came n stuuff...haha.i wanted to take pic but 4got..ahaha..nvm la..next time..then after that eating eating..then suddenly my aunt found hair in her food..then she told the waitress...after a while some chef came up to the table n started saying sorry..haha..damn cute...he was speaking jap n none of us could understand..haha...lol..but he was tall n good looking n stuff..haha...all we could understand was..."sorry sorry..nama...udon....icy kureem.."haha...i couldn't stop laughing..haha...

A nightmare

I dreamed that you walked away from me,
I woke up with tears in my eyes,
I know it was just a dream,
But everything felt so real,
I was frightened,
I was shocked,
I was worried,
I was lost,
All I wish to do now is to run straight to you,
Wrap my arms around you,
Pull you to me,
And not let go,
Afraid that you will leave again,
I want to cry in your arms,
I want to lean my head against your shoulder,
I want to feel your breath on my neck,
I want your warmth to cover me,
All I want now is you.

My confession

If I were to choose someone right now,
He may not be very smart,
But he's able to answer all the questions to my problems,
He may not be the hottest,
But he's a model in my eyes,
He's the funniest person in my eyes,
He is able to make me laugh when ever,
He may make jokes about me,
But I know he cares,
He may not be good in everything,
But at least he's good to me,
He does not boast,
But is humble,
He'll keep me the apple of his eyes,
He'll keep a special smile for me.
He protects me,
He defends me,
He, is you.

害怕(afraid)

你 是 怎 样 的 看待 我
把 我当成什 么 人？
到地是个朋友，
还 是个妹 妹？
或者 是更 多？
我一直在忍 住 我的感 情，
我最害怕的是我控制不了，
海害 怕我会失去.

translation;

What do you see me as?
Who do you take me for?
A friend?
A sister?
Or more?
I keep suppressing this feeling,
What scares me the most,
Is losing control over this feeling,
Afraid that I may lose you.

Hand in hand

As night falls and time passes by,
I just can't seem to close my eyes,
Afraid that you might be gone if I do so,
Leaving me,flying solo,
Laying on the bed all alone,
Thinking that we could be one,
Me in your arms,
As our hearts touch as one,
Watching the sun set,
The kind of scene we'll never forget.

Today

Today I realize,
Just by the thought of you,
Makes me head spin,
Just by the looks of your eyes,
Makes me drown,
Just by the sound of your voice,
Makes the birds sing,
And just by the shadow of yours,
Makes me miss you a little less.

Difference between two

The look of your face,
Is the same both in my dream,
And in real life.

But the difference is,
In my dream,
I'm the only one for you,
In real life,
There maybe thousands lining up for you.

In my dream,
You treat me with such love,
In real life,
The only love I may get from you is a brotherly love.

But most of all,
In my dream,
I am yours,
And you are mine.

Be with you

Time flies when we're together,
Hours turn to minutes,
Minutes turn to seconds,
and the next thing I see is me walking home.

At times I wish not your friends to come,
That way you'll walk me home,
although it may be the three of us,
But all my eyes see is you.

Some days I wish it would drizzle,
That way we'll sit under the hut,
Or hang out at the mamak,
And talk till our hearts content.

When you talk to me,
It is as though nothing else matters,
All problems just seem to turn to dust,
And easily blown away.

my eyes to yours

When I see you,
It's like my whole world stops,
The sky will seem extremely blue,
And time just seem to last forever.

When I talk to you,
Although it may only be a few phrases,
But it's like a song to me.

When you smile at me,
Or at least I think it's me,
It's like a million dollar smile anyway.

But whatever it is,
If I were to give my all to someone,
It would be for you.

the look of your face

today PMR starts..haha..n yet i am still on9..lol..anyway..todays' ppr was ok la..haha.normal..just glad i din hav a writer's block..haha...yea..then after tat i went for b.ball..as usual..things were dumb..haha...the 2 ppl i wanted to "kill"...was sasi n jeeva..pass ball also pass lyk cacat ppl only..haha...so yea la...basically tats was life today...haha...my whole ife only got 2 things la...studies and Basketball..haha...

la la la~

good luck for pmr ge ge :)
you know who i am ;)
gotta admit. me kinda miss me big ge ge. ;(

are you doing ok?
are you doing fine?
had you been thinking of me?
i want to know.
if the answer is yes, maybe i'll come to school early again :)
and yes, i love and miss you.
you know you love and miss me too :P

If it's you

I wish not this feeling I have,
The feeling of missing you,
The feeling of wanting to see you,
The feeling of wanting to be around you,
The feeling of thinking bout you.

This is the exact same feeling a had,
About a year ago,
I had difficulty sleeping,
Difficulty eating,
Because you are constantly on my mind.

A day without you,
Is like a blade that cuts through my heart,
Maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you.

only you

well..today tuition at 8 till 12...two hours of science n two for geo...i wanted to die..after tat renee n charlie came over to my house to study la..ahaha...it went ok la...v actually studied...then bout 5 we head over to the court..then they saw jeeva n gang...haha...charlie say i gna kena..god noes wat i gna kena la..i brough pyro over to teach jeeva...couldn only teach him ltl bit..haha...next time la k jeev?...ya la..but today i damn pissed off at my unc..haih...wana tok bout it also dun wana....i was crying in the car..ahaha...reason?...haha..XD..secret!!!only charlie n nee should noe..haha....so..ya la..basically my day la..

If I fall,
If I break,
If I lose myself to someone,
If I give,
All I am ,
It will be with you.