What is it that you call a person whose life is now nothing but school and co-curricular? Lifeless. No fun, no parties, no hanging out. Nothing but studying, homework and revisions. At the most is a trip to the park and a game of basketball, but after that, it’s back to the school books. Well what can I say except ‘I need that scholarship.’ they always say to strive and work for and towards your dream. Well, here I am now, working, striving, aiming for my dream. A dream that won’t be helped by my dad. So my only way into a college? A scholarship. But hey! Try doin’ so with your classmates making a racket, sabotaging every studying moment. Try doin’ so when they don’t like the teacher, so they do things so that the teacher may not start lessons. Want to know who these delinquents are? People whose parents can afford to send them overseas to study. People whose parents can afford to send them to good, expensive, well-known colleges. People who need not worry how they going to get into a college. People who need not worry bout the fees. People who need not worry bout which college to go to. People who need not worry on fighting for a scholarship. People who can afford to waste their time, hang out, to relax or to even NOT study. You know what? I’M NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE!!! I’m relying on my SPM results to get a scholarship to get into a college. I’m not even saying which college. I’m saying A college. The main problem is my fees. Hey guys!! My dad ain’ paying for my college fees ya’ll. So that means I need to get at least 9 As. And now that the marking system is different. I’m going to need 9A+s. and how in the world am I to do that when there isn’t any class going on?! Every time you guys delay studying time, it makes me want to cry. But what am I suppose to do? Curse at you guys? You guys are my friends mans. Right now, I don’t know if it’s a blessing to get into the class I am in now, or a curse, or just another challenge from God. You guys have no idea how lucky you are to not have to worry about where you’re going to go for you college. Or, where and how you’re gna’ live when your dad kicks you out? Or, how you going to survive? Or, where you’re gna’ live? When and where you gna’ work to pay your daily expenses? How you gna’ pay for your school things? I know I should be placing my faith in the Lord, cause he’ll provide for everything. But everything just seems so real now that I can’t lack. Right now I wish the school had a different arts class or the people in the class have the heart to study. If any of you people are reading.. I’m sorry.. I apologize.. but it’s just how I feel.
Signing off,
Lynette Lee,
8.05p.m.,
23/1/2010
1 comments:
Eh yo, I totally get how u feel, been there done that. Unlike you though, I didn't know Him when i went thru it tho He definitely knew me. Its cool that u've got the privilege of having a two way journey with Him. Don't mean to preach heheheh, but just wanna reassure you, He's got your back, do what you do, and its gonna be all good :D
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