the truth

i don't care if anyone reads this...it's time they all knew the truth...especially you...i do want to hold you forever and never let you go...but He is more important...i don want to let him down again...i love you...i still do...i figured that you would be mad after reading our post..i don't blame you...i've tried to take you as a sis...but i cant...each time i tink of taking you as a sis....my heart,my body,my mind....tells me tat i cant..n i cant...i want to get that pair of ring for us...but if i do...wen wil i stop loving you?...it's bcuz i love you tats y i tink of tat...everytime i c u ...i want to just hug u frm behind...but if i do...wen will i stop loving you?...i want to keep sending i love you notes and sms...but if i do..wen will i stop loving you?...i was juz looking through a magazine n i found the perfect thing for us...i want to get it...but i cant....bcuz...if i get it...i'l never stop loving you...i want to let you go...n i guess it's best if i do so now...before i hurt you more...i hate myself for hurting you so much..i dun blame you if ur mad at me...but i hope u can find a place in ur heart to forgive me....so..i guess tis is it...i wish u a happy life....n..happy 3rd month ani...